my journey through life

i keep bleeding.. i keep keep bleeding in love... i keep bleeding.. i keep bleeding in love.. hard to define.. but blood can be seen all over around my heart.. it has cracks.. it has split up in two.. three.. no count how many pieces... it has broken.. broken again again with wonderful hands of life.. the beautiful color of life is with me as my bleeding heart.. bandaid didn't work.. surgery will not work.. it has to to tied up tightly with thick and impermeable wall. to protect it.. but it will split up again.. it will fall apart into something only i will be able to see the blood.. someting broken can never be glued.. it is irrepairable damage .. tangible only to person it belong to.. only i can see the loss.. only i feel the pinch.. only i can feel the storm in me.. only i can feel the moment broken into and inertia left disturbed.. it is human nature to cover up with plastic smiles and plastic faces... it is the call of this tough and so called " practical" world to ...

melodious lines of songs; i am coming back to you; come back to me; etc etc... running back to one you left... returning to reason who pushed you away.. wanting to return to where you begin your journey to so called "move on".. words with no literal meaning coz not felt but spoken.. emotions not echoed in heart, but in surroundings.. life is not lived once , but every time it is felt deeply... joy, sorrow, pleasure, love, anger, aggression, passion.. are lived at extremes.. it is the perception of a man who makes him sensitive to momemts.. not easy to identify what one is wanting to feel, but it is the connection .. that invisible wiring.. that unfelt untouched strings of heat.. that make u feel a deep pain in ur chest.. Bryan Adams,, the great legend.. his songs.. " when you love someone, pls forgive me, coming back to you".. may not have been so true unless felt closely..

Who would deny the love and excitement when met with a pleasant surprise.. who would not like to be given a surprise to cherish and remember.. surprises are unexpected moments of life, welcomed with love or agony.. gifted with twins is the most beautiful surprise to a newly made mother.. Geting well deserved well spoken well known son in law -another satisfying surprise to a anxious father.. scoring much above expectation - a hurray! surprise to a nervous student.. taken through the most loved moments and to most emotional journey can be lovable surprise to lovers. surprise by default are happy and positive one.. Negative and sad and tragic are not refereed as surprise..

Time is not about running,but it has to do with living.. its is not about how many miles you traveled, but did you experienced when you traveled.. it is not the place which matters but the company... it is not staying together which matters, but the sense of belonging that adds color to living together... the moment life begins to breathe,that very moment becomes special for someone.. making difference to someone life to make it better, is all that makes you human being..i it is easy to live uncivilized life, one difference a civilized life makes is the respect of known and unknown.. it is not about you see, but about that you observe..

College days are the most closest to heart.the classrooms, the labs, the canteen , the lawns, stairs, library( for gossips).. one that we grow up with, often is re-visualized in our memories. our heart wants to go back to good old days.. the memories brings back the people we loved , we cared and are often lost in the race of life... I had one such pleasant time in dreams.. nostalgia swept my heart ans i wanted to stay back in dream.. its amazing how different pleasant phases of life comes in one dream and become a different experience.. one that you realy want to live ....

time repeats.. the prominent word of my life is flasback.. life runs in flashback.. shows you what you have seen, takes you through roads already traveled, make you experience the familiar feelings.. time less traveled, yet felt closely..