From Faith to Idol workship

This part of my life is called " Change".

I was never a religious person. I always prayed in respect for my mother wish and desire for me . I always believed that  positive  energy is within us and not outside in form of idols. i used to think it is always your handwork, sincerity and persistence,  that earns a good life and fortune. I used to blame people for their situation as they could have worked harder to make a better living . I used to not believe in superstitions and all those tactic people do and preach to make life comfortable. Visiting "Guruji" and self proclaimed " Baba"to find solutions to one's life problem is most regretful thing a person can do. I used to hate at idea of having to do anything like that. I believed life takes its own course, why should we try and change the faith and destiny. Our external actions and "Totka" to solve life issues might alter the path set for us and we might land up somewhere else other than our destiny.

So what has changed?

I am much older now so as my thinking which matches with my parents (in a way). I am facing situation that i never wanted to be in. Struggles of my life doesn't seem to end. I am facing crisis as a result of somebody else actions (or no actions :( ). I cannot control this situation as i cannot change somebody else but myself. I try hard in every bit of myself but life is a “bitch” (sorry for bad word). I still believe hard work, persistence and hope will win the race but now, I seems to be open to all modes to correct my life. I am worshiping idols daily, part of my schedule. My mind find peace and calmness in mantra i say, the bhajan i recite and aarti i do. Situations in life depends on energy you attract and keep away and this depends on your actions, your faith and whether or not you "pray" idols with your heart and soul.

I am doing Vaibhav laxmi fast to solve my life situation and do "magic" which i have never imagined to believe in. I did navratra nine day fast. I worship daily so God will not be angry and shower us with their blessings. Yes, still i do Totka basis my mother wishes and belief but now i have faith in them to restore my life balance. 

Any lesson learn't?

This is just one part of my life. Small but prominent. It is teaching me a lot. 

• Never underestimate power of life. It is tough and complex. It can be upside down when you least expected.  
• Hope  Hope and Hope ... make it part of life and suck on it.
• Try and keep trying, no matter how hard it gets. 
• Never shy away from showing your emotions- it will get very annoying at times but just let it out. 
• Never judge anyone by the appearance.  You will never know the hardships and situation he/ she might have gone through to make simple living.

Be ready to "Change".. Even if you are not, Life will make it happen.. 

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